Monday, April 30, 2012

Who died and crowned me everybody's everything?

Happy to report that my best friend has recovered from surgery and is now cancer free!  We are both in a very content happy season in our lives.  As she stated so well to me today, "You know, sometimes I think maybe your miracle is that you will enjoy a long happy life with a 15-20% EF.  The fact that you feel good and can be so active is a miracle in itself."  I have to agree with her.  Yesterday I walked 3.5 miles to get ready for another mini-marathon in early June.  I seem to have learned how to eat in moderation, even sweets!  And I am fully expecting to have a good visit with the nurse practitioner this Friday afternoon.  He will want to double the morning dose of Carvedilol (Coreg) and I am not going to argue with him.  I am already tolerating the higher dosage for the evening, and increasing it in the morning could improve my EF.  I STILL have 30 pounds to lose, but that is not my focus - I am focused on living life as fully as I can, and there seems to be no limit right now!  And if you're wondering about the title of this blog post, it is the opening line from Reba's song, "A Good Friend and a Glass of Wine" and I like the sentiment that we don't have to be "everybody's everything".  That is freedom for a recovering control freak like me!

Tuesday, April 3, 2012

I Believe You're My Healer

Just heard a great song that encourages me so much, "Healer" by Kari Jobe.  I know that no matter what is said tomorrow at my appt., You, God, are my True Healer.  I feel great today - little case of the crazies yesterday - but I am good today.  And aren't we supposed to live one day a time anyways?  Listen to this song, it will bless you too.  He is "more than enough"

Monday, April 2, 2012

Could I be losing my mind....?

Maybe I just have a little too much on my mind lately, yeah, that must be it!  Since the latest echo was no better than my first one (Jan. 2011) the cardiologist put my medication back to a higher level.  Now I am tired too early again.  Also, I feel agitated in the early evening (after the medication).  My best friend is having cancer surgery two weeks from tomorrow, I have a dr. appt on Wed. and not expecting good news, and a couple other confidential items are all bothering me lately.  So maybe I'm not crazy after all. 

On my lunchtime walk today, as I was listening to a great song, "Today" by 33 Miles, I was just bee-bopping along (you know, singing and pointing my finger, etc. etc.), then I realized the landscaping guys were sitting in their truck trying to enjoy their lunch.  They just smiled and nodded; apparently they've seen this type of behavior before on other jobs.  And that's not the strangest thing that happened.  My ipod played a tornado warning!  And there's not a tornado warning, and it isn't the first Wednesday of the month either...haha.  I even took the earpiece out to make sure it wasn't for real.  But it wasn't.  Not sure what that is supposed to mean.  Is God trying to tell me something?  Like quit looking for trouble because some people have REAL trouble.  We visited a homeless shelter on Sat. and there are girls there with BABIES.  That's serious trouble in my book.  It has bothered me so much and I can't get them out of my mind, nor out of my prayers. 

So I'll get on to my whole grain fettuccine - it doesn't taste near as bad it looks - lunch now.  More later after I see the doc on Wed.